Interpreter of Maladies
Thursday, October 27, 2005
ShockedThe first shortlists have started coming and no, I don't figure in any of those. The feeling is well...just like what I felt back on college. When I saw the big companies slip by without as much as looking at my CV. Not a nice time to feel down considering that exams are close by. The feeling apart, I was shocked at first. Its like you give a lollypop to a kid and then u slap and take it away. So you make those big balloons of expectations and then someone comes and punctures them. Ya, thats kinda what I feel. When I landed here, all that I expected from this place was a degree, the stamp of an MBA so that I can go back to my company as a consultant. But soon, opinions started playing with my perceptions.....soon I realized I could be whatever I wanted. People told me not to restrict my horizons, to look beyond consulting so I looked and see...where I landed. Some lessons I guess, as always, would be my takeaways from this:
1. I aint perfect. Not actually or on paper
2. I would always be what I am. What people think about me is immaterial to my personality. I cannot change for pleasing the crowd
3. Life has always been able to keep me happy. Limited and constrained but yes, happy. So, my happiness is in my hand. I can make or break it
Forget shortlists. I should just relax. Hope I just get a decent job.
